Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Crosswalk Singapore

There is a movement happening all around the world. South Asian youth and young adults are rising up to the call of God. Check out what is happening in Singapore.

CROSSWALK 2007 is a faith vision by South Asian Connection (SAC) birthed on 1st January 2007. This event is scheduled on 1st June 2007 at 10.00 pm till 2nd June 2007 at 9.00 am, targeted at South Asian Christian youth, young adults and those young at heart.

A South Asian is a person whose ethnic origins are from the following countries: India, Nepal, Bangladesh, Bhutan, Sri Lanka, Maldives Islands or Pakistan.

Participants will walk the expanse of the island of Singapore in a cross-like fashion. Groups of walkers (of 2 to 4 persons in a walk relay from group to group) will start the walk from the North (Sembawang Park), West (Tuas Checkpoint) and the East (Tanah Merah) and meet in the centre of Singapore, in Adam Road. From there the walkers will walk down South and end at Palawan Beach in Sentosa Island. Palawan Beach is the southern-most point of the Euro-Asian land mass.

This is a prophetic walk in line with the command in Genesis 13:17: "Arise, walk in the land through its length and its width, for I give it to you"

The participants (walkers/intercessors) shall pray for the SEVEN "S"

The participants will pray for Singapore to have the Shekinah presence of God so that Sons will be raised to bring forth Salvation, leading to fruitful Stewardship and Synergy amongst the churches so that more labourers can be Sent to fulfil the Great Commandment and Great Commission of our Lord Jesus Christ.

1) Singapore - "Arise, walk in the land through its length and its width, for I give it to you" Genesis 13:17

2) Shekinah - For Christ did not enter a man-made sanctuary that was only a copy of the true one; he entered heaven itself, now to appear for us in God's presence. Hebrews 9:24

3) Sonship – Therefore you are no longer a slave but a son, and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ. Galatians 4:7

4) Salvation - For this is what the Lord has commanded us: "'I have made you a light for the Gentiles, that you may bring salvation to the ends of the earth.' "
Acts 13:46-48

5) Stewardship - From everyone who has been given much, much will be demanded; and from the one who has been entrusted with much, much more will be asked. Luke 12:48b

6) Synergy – But God has combined the members of the body and has given greater honour to the parts that lacked it, so that there should be no division in the body, but that its parts should have equal concern for each other. 1 Corinthians 12:24b-25

7) Send -Then Jesus said to his disciples, "The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field." Mathew 9:37-38

  • Let us come together in one mind, one spirit and in one heart to claim Singapore and the nations for our Lord Jesus Christ through this prayer walk!

Important Notice:

Briefing for all Crosswalk 2007 leaders and participants with a time of worship, word, warfare, consecration, anointing and instructions.

Date: Monday, 28th May 2007

Time: 7.00 pm to 9.30 pm

Place: Smyrna Assembly

3, Yishun Street 11. S(768645)

Spread the Word around.

Forward this e-mail to a few close friends of yours. Seed the South Asian community in prayer and allow the Lord to bring us to a new level in our corporate journey with Him.

With every blessing to you,

Dearest Pastors, Leaders, Friends and Co-Partners in the Lord,

We write to encourage your kind participation at CROSSWALK 2007. Check out for full details.

Who Jesus Loves?

Me and Mandeep had the time of our lives. We were so inspired at HM that we decided to try our hand at preaching! We went up and down the Arena randomly telling people:

"Jesus loves dirty, rotten, filthy, sinners like you!"

The responces were quite surprizing! People laughed, others did nothing and I'll never forget the look of that one girl's face. Mandeep went right up to here and told her the good news and her jaw just dropped. Mandeep said, "What?.... It's true!"

She said, "Yeah, but..." and was completely speechless!

But it is true though. Jesus loves dirty, rotten, filthy sinners like you and me!

While Jesus was having dinner at Matthew's house, many tax collectors and "sinners" came and ate with him and his disciples. When the Pharisees saw this, they asked his disciples, "Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and 'sinners'?"

Matthew 9:10-11

But go and learn what this means: 'I desire mercy, not sacrifice.' For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners."

Matthews 9:13

I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance."

Luke 5:32

But the Pharisees and the teachers of the law muttered, "This man welcomes sinners and eats with them."

Luke 15:2

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Delta Force!

Our buddies at DPC let us sit at their reserved seats. There was a time when Reggie Dabbs told us to say to the person next to us, "I've got your back!" Than JG was sitting right behind me and patted me on the back and said, "I've got your back!"

What a guy! I can't ever repay him for his kindness, goodness, and faithfulness and generosity! I don't deserve such an awesome man of God in my life. I got your back to bro! Thanks for being there! I don't know what to say! I can't thank you enough. I mean that from the bottom of my heart! Love you to peices my friend. I'll never forget what you've done for me! You are living Jesus! You are a living Jesus! Just like Pastor Pritam! The world needs more men of God like you all! Thanks a bunch!

I thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Here is MD screaming at HM while he was on stage. Very humerous:


I really fell in love with Chilliwack as well. It is full of kind people. We met so many who were so friendly and kind and greeted us so warmly.
Also, I'd like to thank those beautiful people who helped us go to HM! You know who you are! Thanks you from the bottom of our hearts. MD and I had the chance to renew an old friendship and make some new ones with new people.
I just love HM and DM and LM and JG and LG. I love you all to peices. Everytime, I think about how you helped me, it brings me to tears.
Well anyway, until next year!
MD really hates this pic. I think it is to fun! LOL!

Naya Jeevan!

Here are our friends from the Naya Jeevan church. They had a blast. It was most memorable for them as well. I found out that there Pastor is also from Kerala as well. It is a little state in Southern India with a high literacy rate and a long history of Christianity.
It was cool to groove with them. I hope to see them again shortly.


Here is desperation band. Check out the Fro-Hawks. They have two brown guys on the team. I didn't get he chance to tell them about SAGC. I don't think either of them showed up.

I Can't DANCE!

So I was put up there with a bunch of other youth pastors to make a total fool of myself. We had a dance off with my bro PJ. I went up there and shaked my money maker. It was so crazzy that they had to stop me! There was a vote off and we won!
I know that the Raw Motion Dance Company will call me very soon. Sorry, I'm afraid I can't join!

P/S, I'm the brown dude in the middle if you couldn't tell! Yes, the camera doesn't lie! I am most definantly created in the image of God! Yes God is that beautiful! LOL!

Thanks for cheering me on MD! You are my hero to!

Raw Motion Dance Company

I get a kick out of those girls dancing on the stage, the Raw Motion Dance Company. They got moves! I don't know how they get the energy to dance like that! I get exhausted just watching them bust a move! But they cannot beat Napoleon Dynamite or the God's Angels! It reminded me of the following verse:
Psalm 149:3
Let them praise his name with dancing and make music to him with tambourine and harp.


David Nassar has a really cool wife. No, I am not coveting her. I'm just telling it like it is! She was all over our conversation about India. She wasn't domineering, arrogant or stubborn. She was quiet and gentle and engaging (1 Pet 3:4). That night, I went home reflecting on all the beautiful wives my friends have. I know a ton of men of God who have amazing wives. There is PJ who's got L and PP who's got B and not to mention PJ who has A and who can forget PD and D and not to mention PD and L.

So many pastors with such cool wives! Maybe I should join the club. I would have totally refused if you asked me a year or so ago. But after meeting women like these, my heart is changing!

To David and all you crazzy men of God with cool wives, YOU ARE TRULY BLESSED!

"Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands, like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear."

1 Peter 3:3-6

Christian Groupies

Mandeep is an unashamed Christian groupy at his best.

He fought off security to talk with Leeland who were really cool. They really wanted to talk to us but didn't have the chance and had to get on stage. They are an amazing live band and the lead singer has a huge voice. They are off to YC Edmonton. I wish I can go to that as well but can't...

Anyway, they sung alot of hymns as well and it was really moving. I love hymns!

Than we talked with David Nassar. He planted alot of seeds in our youth group a few years ago. He is from a Muslim family in Iran! He gave a free CD to J. It was very instrumental in her coming to Christ I beleive.

I love his book, "A Call to Die." It is a 40 devotional that talks about the actual cost of discipleship! I read it after the last HM he was at. It really changed me!

We were able to talk to him about India. Little did I know that he is absolutely in love with India. He went off about India in his next sermon and we were floored. I realized there that my little heart still throbs for that beautiful nation. It's time to go back... soon...

Also, he has the most delightful and beautiful wife. No, I am not coveting her. I'm just calling it like it is. She came right up to us and just talked. We told her about the need to reach the Punjabi's out here in Currey. They were completely locked into our conversation. I told him to go to India and that it would completely change him! Looks like he might... Funny, that night I was reminising about the old trips to the motherland.

MD fought through security to talk with Reggie who took the roof off at HM. He was a spectacular speaker. I ordered his sermons and I can't wait to receive them! He turned HM into what he calls a black church. He said that we all are chocolate! He made the whole arena rap, "MY G.O.D IS B.I.G!" It was amazing! We told him we were his brown brothers. He loved it!

He also rang out this one kid who was walking out from his message. It was so funny,

"HEY!" he said

The kid turns around...

"Where you going?" asks Reggie,

Boy says something


The whole joint couldn't stop laughing! It was hilarious!

He also did this played his SAX and played some crazzy rap beats.

Okay, as you know MD rubbed off on me and I became a Christian groupy as well!

God's Presence

As always, Jesus showed up to the Convention.

I felt so immersed in the presence of God. There was one part of the convention where they show these pictures of Jesus morphing into different culturally contextual images. It was almost spooky!

I was completely moved. It reminded me of a time when I did a presenatation in my NT Theology class on icons. I thought that icons in the church were like idols. It caused and uproar in the class especially if your prof is Anglican. We had differing views....

However, after HM my perspective has really changed. It was a deeply engaging and spiritual moment when I was staring at all those images on the screen. I can't even to begin to put it into words.

Our God is beautiful and we are created in His image!

"Then God said, “Let Us make man in Our image, according to Our likeness;" (Gen 1:26).
I was also reflecting on who we will truly see Jesus face to face, eye to eye, in person. He will be able to see everything. We won't be able to hide anything and won't want to. I reflected on Job who met God face to face.
"My ears had heard of you but now my eyes have seen you.
Therefore I despise myself and repent in dust and ashes."
Job 42:5-6

HM Soccor

There is nothing like Soccor! MDeep showed off his stuff on feild. He is quite an athletic guy. He scored one goal and as far as I know, his team won. WAY TO GO MDEEP!

It was kinda funny when I overheard his conversation with these White Chocolate girls. MD said he was from Surrey, the brown ghetto. He started cracking some funny brown jokes. He introduces me and I say,
Everyone was dead silent! You can hear a pin drop. No one wanted to move. You should have seen the looks in their faces. They were seriously frightened! So I break the silence saying,

"Just Kidding."
They all let out their breath at the same time. You should have been there! It was funny!

Let the Festivities Begin

Me and the MD are about watch as the festivities begin! It was so great to not worry about Sunday School, the sound of my guitar, the chairs... It is so good to receive for a change. It is so easy to get kinda of burned out with everything that goes on...

HM always recharges my batteries. I just love this convention. I've attended so many but what stands out the most with HM is its emphasis on missions and who can forget communion at the end. It is such and eye opener.

God bless all those laborers who do the back work. I know something like this cannot get off the ground without them!

MD Shows his stuff!

Skateboarding at HM!

Skateboarding and more skateboarding and more skateboarding. Mdeep loves the skateboarding! I’d liked to do more but since I have grown this pot belly, I found I can’t balance as well as I used to…
MDeep isn’t the only brown skater out there! There are many more! Check out his moves.

He met a dude trying to sell him some drugs. MDeep was cool though. Instead of barking at him and getting all tough, he told him about Jesus. Who knows what will happen to the seeds. They are planted nonetheless and his Word does not return void.

So shall My word be that goes forth from My mouth; It shall not return to Me void, But it shall accomplish what I please, And it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.

Isaiah 55:11

Monday, May 21, 2007

Fighting for the Heart of the King!

AHHHhhhh.... What a refreshing weekend. It was HM again and the theme was revolution! Me and MDeep went to learn how to start a REVOLUTION! The convention was a flower, heartful love fest! All I can do now is sit back and reflect but seeing how I feel kinda tired... I'll take a quick nap. In the meantime, you may gaze at the pic!

MDeep wasn't to fond of the pic. I couldn't stop laughing! So did his friend's Mamma!

See you soon and I'll tell you more later!

Friday, May 18, 2007


I will be away for the weekend my blogaholic buddies. I will be off to HM for the weekend. I can hardly wait. Me and MDeep are going to have the time of our lives. Sorry you couldn't make it but if you do, give us a shout out! We love meeting new people and familiar faces.

This weekend we want to get punched by the Holy Spirit!
This weekend we want to get peiced by the Holy Spirit!
This weekend we want to get drowned in living water!
This weekend we want to get ravaged by the Holy Spirit!

This is our prayer!
We don't want to come back the same. We want to truly say,

"I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me."

Galations 2:20

Come on Holy Spirit, show us what you got!

Thursday, May 17, 2007

Great Christian Musicians.

Hello Dear Friends.

I was just reminising about some of the Christian music that has had a huge impact on me. I'm on a Barlow Girl kick at the moment. It's been a long time since I have found music this good in a long time. It made me think of the other great albums out there and the memories they bring. Here is a list of those albums in no particular order.

  • Delirious - Glo
I just love the mix of electric guitars with the crazzzy funk keyboards. I had just discovered Christian music after this album and was pleasantly surprized that there was better stuff out there than on the 106.5.
  • Lifehouse - No Name Face
I was doing a ministry at a Christian Camp at this phase in my life. It was the hardest and most rewarding ministry I have ever done. This album brought much comfort and relief on that lonely island when I sunk into the deepest pit of homesickness I had ever experienced! Nonetheless God was still doing His thing and bringing tonnes of kids to himself.

I'll never forget J. We became so close! He was a passionate and impulsive boy like me. I'll never forget when he asked me to come back to the camp a couple of years after. Oh, I miss J. You never know the impact you can have on people! He is living passionately for Christ.
  • Hillsongs United - To the Ends of the Earth.
We used to listen to this album all the time on our mission trips to PG. I had come back from HM and saw them live and was absolutely touched! Love the mix of electric and acoustic guitars.

The trips were awesome! We held meetings, preached, lead worship, went door to door to share the greatest news on earth, enjoyed the scenic Canadian Rockies, it was awesome! What a great life!
  • Skillet - Alien Youth
I used to absolutely love NIN before knowing Christ. Once Christ took hold of my life, I could relate to Trent Reznor's bleak outlook on life anymore. Skillet was a close rendition to NIN. I love the razor sharp, crunchy riff in 'Stronger.' It was a very bold song. I'd love to see them live. Gosh, I wish the great bands came to this part of the country.
  • U2 - The Joshua Tree
I know their lifestyle and the sins they battle against which are no different than ours. However, I love the church organs and delay effects by the Edge on, 'Streets.' I remember hearing this album all the time as a non Christian. I just loved the musicianship. After Christ, the words took on a whole new meaning!
  • Pillar - Where do we go From Here
I'm a rocker at heart! I love the guitar solo on 'Frontline." It is so unexpectant for a song of this calibre. They got this song totally right. My bro and me loved, "You Can't Bring me Down!" We grew up with edgy, heavy music and it is good to hear some Christian rockers can get it right as well.
  • POD - Sattelite
I Loved 'Alive.' I also loved the Rasta Jesus on there concert set up. I always got a kick of the contextual images of Jesus in the world. In some places He's black, in others he is white and especially in South India where I never understood why they never made him brown with a moustache and pot belly and loonky. LOL! POD decided to make him a rastaman connecting Him with their hispanic roots.

It was quite awesome seeing them play at Ozzfest sharing the Gospel with the Blind Satan worshippers. They were a true light in the darkness and got so much flack for it from Christians. They still stood their ground and didn't compromise!

I'll add more as I remember!

Take a listen if you get a chance!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

'Boring Testimonies'

I meet so many Christians which have what they call a, 'boring testimony." Their testimony goes like this, "I was born in a Christian home. Always knew Jesus... That's it!"

It makes me laugh a little bit! They act so guilty for not being exposed to all the garbage in the world. They seem to feel so bad for not trying drugs, not fornicating, not watching crap movies, basically not being put in recovery, not having STD's, not having horrible images imprinted in their minds.

My I am misunderstanding. I'm sure they are glad that they are releived for not being put through all this but sometimes I see a bit of curiosity like they have been left out from something really awesome or they have no frame of reference over experiencing God's power or grace. I can assure you all that you haven't missed out!

No testimony of Jesus Christ is ever boring. It is how we overcome!

"Andy they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony, and they did not love their lives to the death."

Revelation 12:11


I'm officially a Barlow boy. It's been awhile since I've heard music like this. I dig this new Christian Band called Barlow Girl. They are passionately committed to holiness, purity, and modesty which is really rare in this part of the world. They are true women of God, a band of sisters, and I can't get over how boldly and strongly intimate they are with their relationship with God.

We guys tend to shy away from intimacy. We don't like to talk about our feelings out fear of looking sissy. Some of us shy away from committment and responcibilities. We don't express emotion as well as women (Except me, I cry at almost anything!). Generally, we are just not so open as the women folk. I'm not sure why? Maybe we are just wired differently.

But listening to Barlow Girl has given me a fresh perspective in my love for God. It is interesting to hear and express love for God from a really, deeply, romatic point of view. It reminds me of Song of Songs... What a romance huh?

It is also refreshing to know that I'm not the only person out in the world committed to holiness. I'm not the only one who have taken similiar vows as these girls. It is really inspiring to see this band go the distance. I hope that if I'm ever a father, I will be able to have kids who are as dedicated as these fine ladies. God, I hope they are blessed with outrageous men of God. We need stunning examples as these in our culture today!

Praise God for real Saints!

Sunday, May 13, 2007

Pastor's Joke?

So I heard about this joke that was told by a speaker at a Men's Conference. I shared it with many people and the reviews are quite mixed. My research has revealed that men seem to really enjoy this joke more than the women... Here is what he said:

"My message is like a miny skirt. It is short enought to get your attention but long enough to cover the subject matter."

What do you think? Comment below!

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Barlow Girl

WOW! I'm just amazed at this cool band called Barlow Girl.

They are so bold,
So passionate,
So vulnerable,
So open.

So cute and godly and celibate and deliberately single.
I love those cut throat guitar riffs!

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Spidey Sences Tingling!

I'm a little disappointed with Pop culture lately. Who isn't? Have you seen what is out there? Music seems to be at an all time low. Who can remember back in the day when great guitar playing was hip? It seemed like yesturday that Slash did that aweseome guitar solo for 'November Rain.'

Well, I can finally say that movies have actually gotten better. There are better special effects with the use of the latest in technology. We can dream up bigger and better stuff. However, I noticed that alot of the story lines are still from the past.

I just came back from seeing Spider Man 3. Another blast from the past but I can actually say that this movie was quite good. I thought it would be more of the same old with new villians, new toys for the superhero and who can leave out a damsel in distress. Not to mention a little bit of romance and action all rolled up in one. But Spidey 3 had all these and really great themes on reconciliation, forgiveness, peace, brokeness, vengance, etc. It has got my stamp of approval. I also recall Superman. Funny, how Superman gave his life to save the world and than was raised from the dead.

I kinda like these new movies! The subtly tell about a timeless message. Go and see for yourself.

Monday, May 07, 2007

SAGC Booth.

The SAGC Booth was up and at 'em again at this years PMC Convention! I wish I had some laborers to man it but no takers. I know one day, it will be bursting at the seams with laborers!
Now it will be set up at this years WPAC at RPC. I want to be able to cast this vision into the very soul of people. I want them to own it! I want this vision to be BURNED into the minds and hearts of God's people! I'd hate to hear that people would have loved to go to but couldn't because no one told them. It would be heart wrenching!
Could you pray for this? Pray that we'll be able to recieve positive particpation from those who will hear about it. I don't want to see anyone reject this for a second. This is a moment of a life time. This is a movement of a century. We can't miss it for a second!

PMC Convention 2007 Youth Drama

Don't you hate it when things go wrong? I sure do! I'm sure you read that statement on previous blogs before. We spent alot of time on the following youth video and it was a challenge. By the time we got it done, we were spent. We did the rehersal and all was well. When it was time to present it to the conventioneers, we had audio difficulties that didn't exist during rehersal. I wasn't sure whether to laught, cry or blow a fuse. Nonetheless the show went on. I'd like to share it with you! It is a bit different than what we shared at the convention. See it at:

However, I know that the team can still do better. We want to keep striving for excellence. We want to make this thing go over the top! Our next project is an ambitious one. We need God's grace! We need more resources, inspiration and God's percious spirit. It will all come in due time!

Tuesday, May 01, 2007

Dreams Unlimited!

I got completely blasted this weekend! I went to a leadership retreat with our denomination called PAOC. I've always wanted to go but the oppourtunity didn't present itself. I remember hearing about it in the past but never had the chance to go. Well, the organization was kind enough to take care of my registration and before I knew it, I was on my way!

I didn't know what to expect! I've gone to many conventions in the past, by myself without knowing anyone. It can be a little nerve racking but at the same time a little bit thrilling. I'd be stepping out in faith, going where I never have gone before. So many questions pop into my mind. "Will I make friends? Will people like me? Will there be a powerful move of the Spirit? What is God really up to? What will God teach me next?" I came to the conclusion that I would meet some cool people and learn some cool stuff. It would be refreshing!

After I got to my hotel room I wandered around beautiful Victoria, home of Steve Nash and the beautiful Nelly Furtado! It is a beautiful city. I passed by the many Chinese stores and recalled my BC History class and all the racism and hardship the Chinese and Japanese had gone through in the past. Even the Punjabi's weren't warmly welcomed to the country. Only in Jesus, are those barriers and walls shattered. God is always in the business of breaking ignorance! We really need Jesus in our community!

It triggered a warning I recalled from some of my Ethnic Leader friends about PAOC. They mentioned how it was somewhat run as a club for... white people. I was told a story how PAOC was more than happy to take money from some ethnic churches but not hear their voice. It was quite sad! I know Jesus is building a house of prayer for all nations! That is His vision.

Well, the convention is about to begin! I arrived early in hopes of mingling with some people and enjoying some good Christian company. To my surprize, I was warmly welcomed by a man of God, whom I hold with a lot of esteem! He ran these AMAZING break through conventions for youth. I still recall those powerful encounters I have had with the Holy Spirit at HM! I would be on a buzz for months on end through the convention. I was moved beyond comprehension and I honestly felt like God was transforming my very existence before my very eyes for His glory. I'd get refreshed, encouraged and inspired to do greater exploits for the savior! I'd look forward to these events all year long!

I was taken back by DM who runs the conventions. He took the time to personally shake my hand and made me feel right at home! He even helped fuel alot of visions and ministries I was involved in from his team at Dreams Unlimited. There was SAGC, No Boundaries, PMC Building project to name a few. He also was aware of what real mission work was and showed footage of villagers in Africa where people were on the brink of extinction because of a lack of water. I was told that Canada has the highest percent of fresh drinking water in the world! We couldn't just do nothing. We had to GO and do something. He also showed pics of orphanges showing the faces of impoverished, unwanted babies. This was real ministry! I will never forget how shaken I was as I recalled the poverty and how I used to see it in India back in the 80's and early 90's. These places were great oppourtunities to show Christ's love in action!

I felted quite honored to have the marvelous man of God shake my hand. He kept saying, "We're so glad you are hear!" I remember feeling a little bit startled because I was wondering why he'd be so glad to see me in the 70-80 some registrants at TimeOut! Nonetheless who am I to reject anyone's kind hospitality? I told him that the pleasure was all mine! I just love conventions and I'm eager to learn anything new, especially from this mighty man of valor!

Well, people were slowly starting to come inside the church and I remember trying to make eye contact with people and break into a conversation. It wasn't easy at first because everyone seemed to know each other and I found myself kind of just standing there and wandering around. I get shy streaks at times. God bless L who is J's wife. This couple were always a source of encouragement and inspiration for me. They would take me to their home and spoil me with food and love. She found me and invited me to sit with her at their table. I was so glad. However, I did manage to have some conversations and small talk. I was happy to talk to a few familiar faces.

The event was just about to begin and I couldn't find L so I thought I'd sit anywhere. I saw a couple of people about to sit down so I thought I'd come to join them. They saw me swoop in. They looked like me, new to the occasion and a little bit nervous and apprehensive. What perfect company! They looked at me and said, "Oh... you're sitting there?" I politely looked at them and said, "I could sit at this chair if there is no room... if you want?" as I pointed at the chair next to me. I'd didn't want to take their seat by any means. They uncomfortably looked at me and the table and at each other and walked away to a different table.

"Ouch!" I thought, "Well, that didn't go to well. Maybe I should have stayed in Surrey... Gosh, I hope that my ethnic leader friends were wrong but maybe they are right... Well there is still more convention to go and I know God has me here for a purpose"

I was so glad when DM came to the mike. He encouraged everyone to take the time to get to know each other, especially those who were new. He told the folks not to go out to places without inviting us new people and not to stay alone in our hotels. He prayed a prayer that expressed every need in my heart at the moment. It reassured me that God was indeed here.

The session was great. The speaker was someone I worked with back in my TWU days. She overseed the Discipleship group I was involved in. Thank God for familiar faces. I had a pastor guy sit next to me and asked if it was my first time here. I said yes and he took me right under his wing and introduced me to a bunch of his friends. We had an engaging conversation and I had the chance to meet so many people. It was a wonderful evening.

I got back to the hotel and tried to get into prayer/intercession mode. It has been a battle to pray lately. So many distractions and I ended up staying awake for most of the night. I had a light casual sleep but not much.

When I woke up, I was ready for the next session. I kept praying for God to help me make friends and against discomfort, isolation and loniliness. I was off to the next session to learn some really cool stuff about the myth's of ministry. I met some new people and engaged in some small talk. Than it was time to sit down. Oh, this is always murder when you don't know anyone. I sat down and got into the teaching. We prayed and I remember opening up my eyes and seeing the chair next to me disappear. It was just gone! Where did it go? I felt uncomfortable and alone.

We went off for lunch at the park. I wandered around beautiful downtown Victoria and eventually found it and met some people from the convention on the way. They were from Merrit. I was happy to meet some like minded individuals who were engaged in youth ministry. We had some good chit chat and made it to the park for lunch. I met other folks again and had all the small talk, chit chat you can ask for.

I ran into J who took the initiative to help me meet people. I get a kick out of J. He is one of the few people I know with very keen and sharp discernment. There is no hiding with this Man of God. There is no need to. He encouraged me to meet people and connect. He asked me if I had plans after lunch. I had none. There was a hockey game and no one I could share it with. Actually I don't follow hockey to much but enjoy the occasional play off game. So after lunch I wandered around Victoria and did what I didn't want to do and ended up in my hotel room. I tried to get into prayer mode but ended up getting a good rest.

The next session was about to beging so I left for it. I was a little bit down and still questioning whether I made the right decision to come or not. I met the couple from the park and we talked. The session was about to begin and I was so excited. We did some worship and than DM took the mike. He always does this thing where he blesses people. I get such a kick out of it because it is just awesome to see him invite missionaries on the way to the dark ends of the earth to recieve a little something for there journey. We'd give them money, prayers and a whole wack of love. It is just so much fun and thrilling. I just love to see the smiles and occasional tears of those missionaries as tons of people pour their money, hearts, prayers and love on those front liners. It it is so satisfying to bless those people.

So DM gets up and invites one girl to come up for the blessings fest. Than he mentions a youth pastor who works full time but gets paid for half time. "Gosh, I know exactly how that guy feels! I'd love to meet him," I thought. Than he mentions my name and calls me up! I couldn't stop crying. I wept like a baby! I wept harder than Miss Universe at the beauty pageant. I knew J was behind it. He is the only one who knew about it. I remember his righteous anger when he heard about it. Than DM told us to put out our hands. I did and I had no room for the $$$. It fell on the ground, people put it in my pocket. I got hugs, encouragement and all the rest. Gosh, I'm weeping as I type this. This is a moment I will never forget for the rest of my life.

I'll be honest with you! It has been such a tough and narrow road in the past couple of months. There was so much chaos and I never felt so alone. We leaders have burdens and situations and pressures that we can't really verbalize. It can get pretty tough. I reached a point earlier this year where I desperately needed help and had no one to turn to. J was the only one I could think of. Before P left, we went to J's office where I was weeping like a baby. P asked J to take good care of me while he was away. He was the only one who I can open up to. So he didn't just help but went the extra mile. How can I ever repay him? I went home that night weeping with joy! God hadn't forgotten my labor or hard work. He was still there. All the promises were true:

"Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him and he will do this: He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun."
Psalm 37:4-6
"And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart."
Gal 6:9
God is not unjust; he will not forget your work and the love you have shown him as you have helped his people and continue to help them.
Heb 6:10

DM affirmed me. He said that they believed in me and cared for me and... He also sensed the loniliness I was experiencing. It was heart wretching.

Now I realize that God is really the one behind this work. He himself sees our good deeds and labor of love and He will personally reward us and supply
WOW! I wept all through the night and when I woke up in the morning, I couldn't stop. I hugged my new friends. There was real love!

I can now tell my ethnic friends that things are changing. This is a permanant mark on my life and soul. I will never forget this for the rest of my life. I am just speechless...

So much for going to a little weekend retreat of meeting cool people and learning cool stuff. It went way beyond that. I got more than I can ever expect or imagine! I can dream out loud. There is no limit to God or dreaming BIG for him.

There tears keep coming. I'm not alone. I'm making a difference. There is more out there...